banana split

My grandmother sent me a chain mail about how good bananas are for your body and mind - so I just had a banana split. Calcium + banana= good for me? I was up much of the night with the Willow bug who has a second tooth coming in and really needed to nurse all night along. At 3 am she decided it was party time and headed out to the family room, mom in tow - I was tired of nursing and better a happy distracted baby than an in bed fussy one. She settled down by four but then I picked up " The hunt sisters" and couldn't stop reading.. So now i'm tired but I can't sleep and feel a bit off.

Little things are making me sad today. For example - during play group, we were playing with a parachute - the kids would go in the middle and we'd walk around in circle so they'd get a "ride". One little boy didn't like it and was crying, but his mom wouldn't take him out. She wouldn't pick him up. This was not something we *had* to do. It was supposed to be fun. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and picked him him up. That's all he needed. Usually, I am not a vocal critic of other parents. I have my thoughts but I know too that everyone does things differently. Today this just upset me a lot. When kids need affection they should get it. Maybe I need a hug today. Yeesh.

Also today I wish I didn't have to work. I like my job honestly, and I like having money of my own but if I could afford it, I would stay home because when I think about what makes me happy, it is being with my child. I tried last night to think of how much money would make it worthwhile to leave Willow all day. Not even a million dollars, because I can't buy back my time with her. There is nothing I want more than to watch her learn, help her grow, hug her close. I understand though that I have to help provide a home for her, monetarily and I have a good balance right now.

I'm lucky and the banana split will kick in soon!